I should warn you now this is probably going to end in a bit of a rant! The pregnancy hormones are in full swing and I had a suspect consultant appointment at then beginning of the week which I just need to get of my chest. The below are extracts from my journal which I have been writing each week.
Week 36 brought about the beginning of my maternity leave. The last few days at work I was hoping for a bit of a relax and an opportunity to clear out my office to make sure its all ready for me to come back to in November. There is nothing worse than having to do it on my return to work, I tried that last time and it was throughly depressing at an already difficult time. However it end up being pretty hectic which has meant that I haven’t really had much chance to think about Kipper or maternity leave.
The majority of the weekend was spent putting the furniture together for Monkey’s room and he managed to sleep in his big boy bed and hasn’t left since. However theres still rails to install and draws to make so he’s not actually moved in yet. Although hopefully next weekend we will manage it completely and the wall stickers will go up along with all the finishing touches. Then I can finally start nesting and deep cleaning the nursery.
Getting on the scales I have still managed to keep the weight gain pretty low at 4.3kg most of which is likely to be baby. Right so now for the ranting bit…
I had a consultant and haematology appointment on Monday, now depending if my due date is the 2nd or 3rd of May this is either on exactly 37 weeks or 36+6. I am not sure as they seem to change my date depending on who you are talking to. I don’t really mind I have always subscribed to the fact that its a guess date and Kipper will make an appearance when he’s ready.I guess what I am saying is this could fall into this week or next week but I need to get it off my chest so here it is…
This was the first appointment which Hubby hasn’t attended as he has been in Germany and Hungry this week for work. I don’t know if this made the difference or not. I had taken my Herpin injection with me as I still can not bare to do it myself. I need not have worried and I am glad we pushed to see the haematologist… basically he was very nice but he’s not convinced my sticky blood is active. Because I have never had a clot. Although I have two positive tests for the antibody, that antibody could effectively be inactive, which is the case in around 60% of people with it. Which ultimately means I may not have needed to be on the Heprin in the first place. Now I would choose healthy baby over a few injections any day. But it does make you wonder why I was not offered the haematologist initially at my 14 week appointment. He went on to say that I should come off the Herpin around 35/36 weeks so it is completely out my system by the time I deliver. Not what the consultant had said at 34 weeks in fact she had said the complete opposite. Again it makes you wonder if I had rocked up half way though labour having only had a blood thinning injection 12 hours prior what would have happened?
The good news is that I will not need to continue with the Heprin now post delivery for more than 10 days (it was 6 weeks). Also I won’t need to worry about taking any other medication into the future. I think we will still probably seek advice at some point as I don’t want to run the risk of having a clot after all how does that antibody become active?
So my head was pretty spinning as you can imagine. My placenta has been working in overdrive because of the thinners which is great for baby but it does mean he’s on the large side. I thought I would ask for another growth scan after all my history of shoulder distorta would need to be considered. Somehow this reasonable question ended up with me agreeing to an indiction date. What? Thats the last thing I want. I felt completely over whelmed when I came out of the hospital. How did they manage to get me to agree to something I absolutely don’t want, three against one thats how. The midwife that told me all about it after was brilliant, she could already sense the stress that was starting to set in. She told me I could cancel the day before and ask for another consultation. Thats not happening either. I cancelled the next day after a very emotional out burst over the phone to Hubby who felt absolutely useless as he’s in another country. Thankfully he knew just what to say. Those people that know me will know how stubborn and strong willed I am yet I was still pushed into something I didn’t want. What happened to expectant management and the conversation I had, had with the exact same consultant three weeks ago?
I was pretty stressed which is not good for baby either… oh and angry. I had to take part in some retail therapy (Hubby’s suggestion) to help my mood which I will be telling you all about in next weeks update.