This is the next instalment of our pregnancy journey. The below are extracts from my journal which I have written each week (I am now 16 weeks). You can read about how I felt when we found out here. I will be posting other weeks extracts in the coming days.
It’s our wedding anniversary today, 6 years and we are still in Toronto. Had a lovely day and feeling a lot more positive. Hubby and I got a few hours late afternoon to ourself to spending some time shopping before having a few drinks (non alcoholic for me) and food. It gave us a chance to talk about the pregnancy a little which has been impossible up to now as his parents are also on holiday with us and we want to keep it quiet due to our history. Although my early nights, no alcohol and constant water drinking I thought would give the game away.
He surprised me by insisting I tried on some eternity rings. My fingers were still swollen from the heat which even the sales lady remarked on. Charming! We didn’t get one, I had no idea what I wanted but it was nice to look.
I have accepted that there is nothing which I can do about the pregnancy it will either work or it won’t. Not worrying about it constantly will more likely lead to the positive outcome we both want. As soon as I had realised this point everything seemed a little better and I’m even able to revel in our secret a little bit.
Nausea is setting in which I keep telling myself is a good thing! Especially after seeing the doctor yesterday and reading the note that aspirin only increases chances of holding to 50%. She is going to fax the obstetrician about taking Heprin – what happened to Clextaine? And why hadn’t I seen that letter that was dated 15th May?! I hope she comes back quicker this time! Panic is setting in and I need to get it back under control.
This pregnancy I do feel physically sick and it’s really put me off eating. Just as well as the scales are saying I have already put on 1.2kgs already! I’m not even sure I can blame the holiday! Although I have not been sick yet I suspect by the end of the week….
Hubby keeps saying we need to take each day at a time but is willing to discuss a game plan to get Monkey into our bedroom and for us to move into the spare room. The amount of decluttering we need to do this though us daunting! Regardless of what happens with this pregnancy he needs to be out of the nursery and into his own larger room either way so we can store some of his toys upstairs!
I have decided not to start the pregnancy journal until week 12 and after we have had a successful scan. I am going to book my midwife appointment next Friday as they wont see me until 8 weeks and previous times I have booked too in advance and ended up having to cancel it.
Lying in bed last night I am certain I can feel the pressure of the baby. I felt Monkey move at 10 weeks and often feel ovulation so it would make sense that I can feel something at least. Either way even if it’s just in my head it reassures me and to be honest I’ll take anything in that department at the moment!